Be Your Own Bodyworker or Why I Stopped Fixing People

In my twenty-two years as a professionalhuman history before technology and chemistry when
bodyworker I have gone through many phases ofthis type of hands-on-healing was the prevalent mode
developing my practice. For the first few years Iof healthcare. Maybe there is a misunderstanding of
followed the protocols I was trained in as closely as Itechnology and we have forgotten that the highest
could. I got good results, but there were stillknown form of intelligence is consciousness as
shortcomings that left me dissatisfied. So I startedmanifested in human beings. Perhaps our fascination
what has become a lifelong journey of investigationwith artificial intelligence has caused us to overlook the
into any form of healing that seemed to offer promise.fact that we are much more complex and have vastly
I checked out everything from light touch energygreater potentials than any machine ever created.
healing to deep tissue bodywork. I also studied bodyI became frustrated. All the protocols will always fall
centered psychotherapy. I learned a great deal. But theshort. If I tried to teach all I had learned I would just
most astounding discovery was made on my ownhave students approaching the healing situation with a
while treating clients.lot of ideas and really missing the point. I wanted a
Although I practice eight different modalities, mycompletely new approach, an attitude of asking
personal favorite has always been Cranio-Sacralquestions and waiting patiently for an answer. I wanted
Therapy. After following the prescribed protocol forto teach a way of combining meditative awareness
several years, I began to yearn for more. It seemedwith hands-on healing. But I couldn't see any way of
that there was more potential to this form of healingdoing this. I was lost. So I just experienced all the fear,
than I was tapping into. At the same time, I wasconfusion and anxiety. Then I let it all go and forgot
practicing meditation regularly and noticed that myabout teaching.
meditation practice was beginning to affect myOne morning Carly called and asked me to teach a
cranio-sacral treatments. Instead of staying with theworkshop at her yoga center. I thought why not? It will
prescribed protocol, I began to venture into newbe fun, a good change of pace. I experienced a new
territory. The result was that I expanded what couldsense of excitement. I laid down on my bed and asked
be treated, going beyond just bones to include themyself how I could do this, where to begin? The first
whole body and aspects of the mind as well. Theanswer was emotions. They are so powerful, so
results improved dramatically. I also became moreenergetically charged and have a strong influence over
patient with the healing process, being willing at times tous. I decided there would be no fixed plan, just choices
do nothing, just wait and observe. This went againstthat are made by asking the bodymind what is needed
the prevailing mentality of trying to fix the problem asthrough muscle testing. The practitioner would focus on
quickly as possible.awareness while the client embodies the emotion. A
My experience of the innate intelligence of the body orlaying on of hands would complete the healing circuit.
"bodymind" greatly deepened. I noticed that theAfter much consideration, I decided to call it Emotional
bodymind has its own agenda and time frame. It's likeAwareness Practice. Each word succinctly describing
watching a baseball game and hoping they wouldwhat this technique is about. I became imbued with a
hurry up. The bodymind, like baseball, has its own pacestrong sense of mission.
which doesn't always fit our schedule. Although someThe practice that resulted from all this is so simple that
protocols seemed to be more in tune with theI now to teach it to the general public in one day.
bodymind than others, overall they seemed to be anEmotional Awareness Practice (EAP) is done fully
imposition. The real agenda of the bodymind changesclothed while sitting in chairs. The treatment is
moment to moment and no fixed protocol could evercompleted in around ten minutes. "Homework" is
be completely in sync with it.included that can be practiced after the treatment to
I felt humbled and at the same time excited by myenhance the positive results. I also teach a way that
experience of the body's inner wisdom. I was doingyou can treat yourself. EAP is now part of my daily
more observing and less fixing. I felt like the first manpractice.
on the moon, excited and daunted. All I had to do wasEAP brings the experience of meditation and hands on
listen to the bodymind and give it space to do what ithealing to a larger audience. After doing this practice
needed to do, what it was able to do far better than Ipeople have reported that they feel less overwhelmed
or any healer. I discovered relationships in the energyby negative emotions. Negative emotions still come on,
body that were not part of any modality that I hadbut their duration is shorter and less intense. Their grip
studied, sometimes complex and then appearing soon us is loosened allowing our saner and more mature
simple. I observed an innate intelligence that was readyside to manifest. As one client put it, "It gets us beyond
and able to resolve its issues. All that was neededourselves", beyond our little internal wrestling match so
was conscious observation and permission to heal. Ithat we can relate to the larger world. EAP gives us
simply observed and learned to get out of the waygreater clarity about how we really feel without having
while still being present. I found that there wasto act on it. There is also a significant release of
tremendous power in just bearing witness.muscular tension. This is because negative emotions
While this was going on I was repeatedly asked tocause muscles to chronically tighten. As our muscles
teach. I usually declined. How could I teach all of this? Itrelax our posture improves leaving us standing
was challenging enough to explain it to my clients. Howstraighter and feeling more grounded.
could I teach what I had learned through being trainedThere is now an extensive body of evidence indicating
in eight modalities, twenty-two years of practice andthat negative emotions have a significant impact on
twenty years of meditation? The answer was theour physical health. And of course if they really get out
same as before. Learn to relax with it, let go and let itof hand they can cause us to do things that we later
happen. I needed to stick with the essence of theregret. Emotional Awareness Practice is a significant
experience and not get bogged down in the details.step towards developing greater clarity about how
I knew in my heart I believed that if I could do this work,emotions affect our daily lives and it also improves our
anyone could do it. This capacity must be in all humanability to manage emotions through body awareness.
beings. It just lies dormant. Maybe there was a point in